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Female, 36 years old
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i won`t have to anymore jon groff

Interests: Dogs / Dancing / Games / Theater / Singing
Homepage: (None)
Birthday:10/11/1985 (36 Years Old)
IM Type: MSN IM Name:
Occupation: Dancer
Marital Status: Married
Sexual Preference: (Decline to State)
Religion: Other
Politics: (Decline to State)
Fav. Movie: good will hunting, you`ve got mail, dead poets
Fav. TV Show: House, macgyver, poker
Fav. Book: Without You by Anthony Rapp
Fav. Song: i like broadway :-) and singer/songwriters
Fav. Food: Donuts
Fav. Car: bah. walkings where its at
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This used to be a funhouse, now its full of evil clowns, its time to start the countdown, i`m gonna burn it down down, i`m gonna burn it down - Mood:Good
Wednesday January 07 20096:09:47 PM |
So I want to dye my hair some crazy color. I figure, i'm in school, i don't have to be worried about getting fired from ym job for having neon hair since i don't have one at the moment.

But what color?

My hair is normally dark brown. purple, blue don't really show up. I've never been fond of having green hair.
Pink is so not happening.
Red doesn't show up and i don't want it bright red either.

Black is too.. non colorful

I refuse to bleach it. So there goes blonde/ colors being vivid.

So. The question i've had since i was 15. What color?

I used to have hair down to my waist. I just took a scissors and razor to it and now its about chin length. Well.. some of it anyway the longest parts.

I like it. I think.

So. what color.

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Someone tell me how to get this hair style without going to the hair dresser - Mood:Good
Tuesday January 06 200911:02:33 PM |
So I decided to do some push ups. I used to be able to do push ups all day when i was younger. So i figured, might as well do some, keep up my arms.

Yea. I got to 4 and a half. how sad.

Did some crunches as well. Now those i can do

so i want the hairstyle pink has at about 4:30 In this

but can't figure out how to do it. My hair is that length now anyways, i just want the.. spiky ends type thing she has going on and i can't figure out how.

No, i will not go to a hair dresser, 1) it'll cost me 40$ for them to do about 2 minutes of crap i could do myself if i knew what i was doing 2) every time i give them a picture(s) etc to go by, it never looks anywhere close. 3) i like a challenge even if it was free i'd wanna try it myself

I was thinking maybe its razoring it.

bah 900 characters

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Hi, I`d like to put in an application to re-do today. Thanks. - Mood:Good
Tuesday January 06 20095:29:55 PM |

I woke up. I went and got clothes from my old dance studio. I went to walgreens. I came home.

Thats it.

God i hate coming home. I go back to being 13 years old, where everything can break me and I regret everything that comes out of my mouth and sink back into self loathing.

18 more days.

18 more days til i go back to school.

Making this suffocating regret and anxiety go away.


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Its never good to turn on Inside The Actor`s Studio and go "who the f*ck is that??" - Mood:Good
Monday January 05 20097:18:03 PM |
I've been watching for about 15 minutes now and i still don't know who it is.

HOWEVER. He mentioned my city and said he was at Geva theatre for awhile That's about 10 minutes from my house. Exciting.

I have been youtubing for a good 2-3 days now.

I'm on a Pink kick. Girl can sing. Good entertainer. Amusing in interviews.

I'm irritating this guy i met online that likes me

I won't let him drive me home. I want to walk to meet him in the mall then walk home. Which is difficult since he works til 6 and i won't walk in the dark.

But... i'm not budging. He has no idea how crazy/odd/ high maintenance i am. So that could be interesting.

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Do I have WHORE stamped across my forehead or something??? - Mood:Good
Sunday January 04 20096:34:22 PM |
I am completely disturbed.

At my college I went to two RAs when i went crazy at night. They knew all about my cutting, they knew me in the depths of my insanity.

One dropped out halfway through the semester because he was going for his masters and didn't think it was worth it. They were both half RA/ half friends to me. But kind of always in a position of authority ya know?

I moved buildings and the RA that was still around and i stayed friends and we get together once in awhile and hes a good sounding board. Kinda in a checking in type way.

We are all friends on facebook.

I haven't spoken to the one who moved out since mid october, though we sent each other greenie plants things and flair on facebook, ya know, type things.

OKAY. so i have issues. many issues. a good lot which they know.

Okay backstory done, here is my current predicament:

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No. - Mood:Good
Sunday January 04 200912:10:14 AM |
Make it go away.

I'm in a curl up in a corner and stare at the floor mood

Make it f*cking go away.

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So its a bad sign that i keep waiting for this guy to run away from me calling me a psycho right? - Mood:Good
Saturday January 03 20097:33:04 PM |
I think it is.

I just keep thinking this guy is just SO right on the edge of raising his eyebrow and slowly backing away.

I am not the ideal girl. I am so not. I have all these quirks and oddities, not to mention i am social disorder shy and oh did i mention crazy as all f*ck?

What guy would want that?
None which sucks understandable. but sucks.

What it also does is makes guys go "oh, um, yea, i don't wanna date you. But i'll f*ck you, yea let's f*ck" which is LOVELY for helping my insecurities and not feeling wanted only for sex.


Perhaps i should stay single for awhile.

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I had a YT dream! - Mood:Good
Saturday January 03 20094:28:06 PM |
Sammy was in it. And she was far too nice. She came to visit, she had no accent though, which baffled my family. She visited my grandmas house We all had tea. Then she invited me back to Australia.
Seriously. She was far too nice.

Then i dreamed my sister was a successful doctor and i was the screw up daughter and that was unpleasant.

I woke up at one but my room was so cold i snuggled deeper into my blanket and fell back asleep.

I have to pee
Which, if you've been following that story, sucks. As my toilet is broken.

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So go and tell your friends that I`m obsessive and crazy, that`s fine, I`ll tell mine you `re gay - Mood:Good
Friday January 02 20097:55:21 PM |
I hate being discounted because i'm a virgin. Like i can't possibly know anything about sex/ related subjects because i'm a virgin.

While yes, that means I don't have experience with some things that doesn't mean you can scoff at me anytime i say anything relating to the topic because ".. but aren't you a virgin?" Its getting old people. Seriously.

Can i be Gene Kelly? Please?

22 more days til i move

I made pancakes in the shapes of dog faces for breakfast

I have been singing along to my tunes for a couple hours while YTIng its HIGHLY enjoyable.

And i gotta tell you. Once in awhile i don't sound too bad

I have no one else to bitch to about this so yall get my TMI.

I hate leaking out of my vagina. And feeling like my uterus is going to seize up and fall out.

Its not a good feeling.

That is why i never understand when people say (cont)

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Not having a working toilet while on the rag is the sh*ts man - Mood:Good
Friday January 02 20092:50:55 AM |
I my avy

I made trivia! Aren't you proud?

I have been youtubing Gene Kelly for a couple hours which led to donald o'connor, danny kaye, fred astaire videos.

Oh the happiness.

I need to find better friends. Like fo sho.
The ones i have kinda suck ass. They are so stuck in a constant swirling toilet bowl of a funk. And i don't feel like swirling down with them.

One of them is still in love with his ex after 8-9 months. Like completely not over her pining after her still in love with. With no plans of moving on.
AH I can only take so much of that.
Normally i wouldn't mind being there for someone through that. But that guy thinks i am only good for sex and/or hearing about his ex. He's oh so bad for me to be around.

I really want some fresh fruit.

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I am still holding out for YT meet up: Brockport - Mood:Good
Thursday January 01 20096:48:43 PM |
It will happen. Travel is good for you yall!

I am starving. We just had dinner but i didn't like a bunch of it and i hate eating at peoples houses.

So I'm starving. I wanna go home... but i have limited internetz there so, i don't. but i'm starving so i do.

I think i'm gonna meet up with this bloke i meet online (not here). So if you never see me again i most likely got raped and murdered.

I would like a YT memorial if its not too much trouble.


My mother wants to recreate the beyonce single ladies video with me and perform it for my dance studios benfit concert
Scary. But okay

I will so youtube it for yall.

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Hey. You`re a crazy bitch but you f*ck so good I`m on top of it. When I dream, I`m doing you all night, scratches all down my back to keep me right on - Mood:Good
Wednesday December 31 20084:00:17 AM |

My that song is catchy.

I just heard it For the first time.

It is now my ringtone

by the way, I shouldn't headbang. I have a headache and am dizzy now. and i only 'headbanged' for 30 seconds.

Its also very weird to headbang then go girly skip and jazz hands to the remote to change the channel.

I am watching the top 40 videos of 2008 and downloading songs that i was too deep in the college bubble to hear.

I didn't even know some of people existed/came out with new poo.


Show me your boobs.

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This is why you don`t salsa dance in your family room (pics) - Mood:Good
Sunday December 28 20084:13:12 AM |

I do believe those are two of THE most unflattering pictures i have ever purposely taken.

But yea. Its not so much a product of dancing in the family room, just trying to salsa dance with experimental arm movements and really long fingernails. Thus, slicing my nose open

However, i am proud to say, like the professional I am, if i were by chance in a performance you never would have known i sliced my nose with my thumb nail. Not a flinch. Until i stopped dancing. I'm getting better at harming myself during movement and not letting it show.

Which.. sounds like a positive thing.. but.. I wonder if that means I'm also getting better at harming myself while dancing..

Back to salsa dancing!

After i trim my nails perhaps....

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Holy wading through a sea of crappy journals batman - Mood:Good
Saturday December 27 200810:26:15 PM |
Who opened the flood gates?

Oh well, so i'll add my own.

The boy i have a fancy for hasn't been online in about a week. Bah.

I really want to cuddle up with someone who makes me happy and watch a movie tonight.

I have candy canes

I feel 30 years old and 13 years old at the same time. Its an odd feeling.

Thinking about the future makes me want to cry, pull out my hair, scream, hide, suck my thumb, blow up a building and eat ice cream.
Yes ice cream. I'm lactose intolerant, its self destructive!

I'm getting awfully sick of being at home with nothing to do. Don't get me wrong, the break from responsibility is lovely. I just wish i had soemthing enjoyable and pleasant and active to fill the time.

I can't drive. And i have no friends. So... any ideas?

Here, have a peanut

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zomg i hate school. I just typed Andrew Jackson instead of Alan Jackson - Mood:Good
Friday December 26 20085:52:07 PM |
I'm bored.

I need a good game to obsess over. Off to yahoo I go.

AH HA! i'll put up pictures on facebook.

Oh the sadness of my life.

So whats shaking?

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So this isthe extent of my night... - Mood:Good
Friday December 26 200812:36:48 AM |

....And christmas is over and now i'm bored til new years. Then i'll be bored til semester start.


Who wants to do something fun? Any ideas? Any at all?

I miss being a kid and getting gifts that i can play with all night and for 3 months before getting itred of them.

I can't play with gift cards

Or clothes.

Seriously. I want to buy myself a toy.

Any ideas? Any at all?

I do have a webcam. But really. How much fun can one have with that.

OH the boredom.

It is after midnight YT time!!! How many newbies?!

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I look like the mad hatter/new alice in wonderland movie with alan rickman - Mood:Good
Thursday December 25 200812:59:50 PM |

Merry Christmas

It is my goal to look scary and festive at the same time every year. I think i succeeded.

alice in wonderland with an awesome cast

We are having a very WHAM! christmas at the moment. in terms of music anyways.

Me and my mom and stepdad already exchanged. I got a hoodie, dog wallpaper for my dorm, printer paper, vitamins, knee pads, tic tacs, batteries.

I think they liked their stuff


I got NO sleep last night. I have no idea why. I'm old and not all jittery about christmas anymore. But i couldn't fall asleep. it was odd. it wasn't a christmas thing.odd indeed.

Perhaps because i sleep 9 hours and don't do anything during the day but eat and go online



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WOOHOO i have a webcam. Its exciting - Mood:Good
Wednesday December 24 20087:27:24 PM |
I used to have one but it broke. I just got one in the mail (from ebay) and am now broadcasting through yahoo

I think in my dorm i'm gonna keep it up and running all day



christmas eve! woo.

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I`m pretty sure i`m in love with hayley mills - Mood:Good
Wednesday December 24 20083:29:30 AM |
Watching trouble with angels. and damn. shes hot.

So what are you all (or few) up to tonight?

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I do believe my grandmother is trying to set me up - Mood:Good
Sunday December 21 20085:27:47 PM |
She asked me if I can come over Tuesday. I'm like, uh, i don't think so. Why?

She said because her friend is coming over for afternoon coffee and shes bringing her grandson. Whose 22. Named Jamie. And I should really come over Tuesday.

Ahh. Nothing like trying to be set up by my grandma.

..... Is it bad that i'm kinda curious?

Not that i will come over. And meet some friend of her's grandson at 'afternoon coffee'.

But still. Finding a friend may not be a bad thing.

Oh the desperation of me

34 days left.

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So i had Shop Erotica on in the background for a good 20 minutes before i heard "you just stick his scrotum in here, attach this for clitoris stimulation and prolong his erection!" and turned to see what the heck i was watching (um. mature - Mood:Good
Sunday December 21 20083:24:33 AM |
A good lot of those things look painful.

Some look WAY to complicated. Seriously. Are all those bells and whistles and rotating ballbearings really needed?

I kinda wanna buy myself something. Just to have something

But holy drat those things are expensive.

I am mesmerized by the vibrating dongs.

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Ohhh the love i have for alan rickman - Mood:Good
Sunday December 21 200812:39:32 AM |
Slightly disturbs me. Since he's old. But mmmmmmmmmm how i love him.

I could listen to his voice all day.

I think he's make a goo audiobook reader person.

anyways. I got all my wrapping done, packages and gifts for family.

I'm gonna go broke sending these things.

I hope yall like them

I want a boy who loves me to put his arms around me.

I also want to be back at school.


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I`m starving but i have no food - Mood:Good
Saturday December 20 20085:21:33 PM |
I'm gonna look anorexic

I can't drive. My family refuses to go out because of all the snow.

Therefore. I am going to starve.

You know how people whine they have nothing to eat but have a buncha stuff, they are just picky?

Technically i could eat pickles and pringles for dinner.
So at least thats something.


Yay breakfast and lunch.

No, but seriously. I'm starving. Its not nice.

I swear this journal was going to be about other things. But all my brain can think is "i'll hungry i'm hungry"

I haven't even started making my grandma's christmas present yet

I like mario batali. I used to not. But he seems like a nice guy.

I am watching iron chef. Probably not a good idea at the moment.

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My night in pictures - Mood:Good
Saturday December 20 20082:55:41 AM |
My wrist hurts.

i wrapped a buncha packages, and still have more to wrap!

i got bored and gave myself a fashion show

i've been munching my ss stuff

and yummy cookies

my feet were cold

MAN my wrist kills. Ice? Heat? Wrap?

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January 27th, 2003 - Mood:Good
Thursday December 18 200810:35:24 PM |

i pray i will always be lita and never lose your love. you give me life when i can no longer breathe. you make me smile when i thought it wasn't possible, i will always be your girl whether not like a girlfriend or so. i will always belong to you in some small way, small as to not lose myself but still some because you have captured me and my spirit and my song and i love you for it. i can never ever forget the feeling of when you hold me, how safe i feel how unbelievably happy i become. how i long for your arms to embrace me whenever i see them. how perfect your eyes are, like the sparkle only for me, like i can dive in and get lost forever, hope to never resurface. how i have this feeling for you i know will never go away even if buried underneath piles of years blinded.
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