So I've switched off my phone until 8 pm tonight.
This is the first time I've done this in years. My phone is always near me, or I am on it. I am mostly on it. I use it for everything. My apps track things for me, I text friends all day, I get notified with new emails, new bank transactions, my podcasts are on there, my music, my calendar, my internet browsing, my clock.
Everything is on my phone. So I've switched it off. The habit is still so strong. I wanted to see whether a bank transaction went through and reached for my phone.
I wanted to check the time and then I realised my phone was off and my thought was honestly "poo, I won't know the time now"....! Then a minute or so passed and I thought to check my laptop time.
The addiction is real. I didn't realise it was this bad.
Right now I feel more present. I'm not distracting myself. I am thinking about things more.