(48 Years Old)
(Decline to State)
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|Occupation:|| Wastewater treatment plant opperator|
|Fav. Movie:|| Jacobs Ladder|
|Fav. TV Show:|| Air Wolf|
|Fav. Book:|| Winds of War/War and Remembrance by H. Wouk|
|Fav. Song:|| Echos- Pink Floyd|
|Fav. Food:|| pizza|
|Fav. Car:|| 69 Lincoln Continental Mark III||
A conversation is a kind of illusion. |
I don`t know what is going on in your brain.
All I can know is what I`m thinking.
The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you.
You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.
I never saw her face because I was mesmerized
by her melodic muff
| After 30 years-30 days not smoking - Mood:Good|
Thursday November 16 201712:23:26 PM |
|The patches have helped but the support I've been getting has helped more. I truly appreciate it. It's a mental struggle as much if not more than it is a physical one. Sometimes I resist the urge because I remind myself I'm breathing easier. Sometimes it's because food tastes better. Sometimes it's because it will make it easier to get a date if I decide to do that. But usually it's because I don't want to let my friends down. Yeah, living longer is cool but without the respect of my friends it just wouldn't be worth it. I know no one would disown me if I started again but I don't want to disappoint my kids, family and friends. After all, I didn't decide to keep living for me so of course my motivation is outside.|
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| Nearly half way to my first major goal - Mood:Good|
Tuesday October 31 20172:24:50 PM |
|So it's past noon on day 15 of not smoking. The thought of getting to 30 days is a big motivator for me. Not sure if I should get myself something or just enjoy the accomplishment. Yes I'm counting chickens but I've never made it this far before without cheating so I'm really optimistic.|
Taste is coming back. I'm putting less salt and pepper on things and it's still too much.
I'm where I want a cigarette but I don't need one.
I still get a little scatterbrained but for the most part I can concentrate. Glad that part is over.
So I guess I can start doing other things now instead of putting all my efforts into resisting.
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| I`ve made it a week. - Mood:Good|
Tuesday October 24 20172:45:55 AM |
|So I haven't smoked at all for a week, not even one puff. That's the longest I've quit in over 2 years .My all time record is 26 days and that's not even a real record. I cheated multiple times. That record is 26 days of trying to be quit .So in 20 more days I'll beat my false record .|
Some of you might be getting tired of my quitting smoking updates but really that's the only thing I'm doing . I didn't do crap on my vacation except hang out with my dad and my friends .I couldn't concentrate enough to do anything productive .The last 2 days I've been at work but the withdrawals have subsided enough I didn't screw anything up thank goodness .
I just wanted to say thanks to everybody who has been supportive it really has helped . My new goal is to make it to double digits .I'm optimistic that will happen .
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