oh hey it's october
friday night was my last night at the sushi place.
decided to put in my two weeks as the other job needs more attention
maybe also a teensy bit to get away from Impossible Crush.
and made me weak in the knees just stepping into the kitchen.
was getting pretty hard to focus. best to stay far, far away
I've been feeling oddly. Best word to describe it maybe is "fragmented?"
Like I'm one mature-ish person at work and just a selfish, twisted desensitized child inside.
And work seems to be fighting to take up more of who I am, at least it's getting harder to separate from my personal life and vice versa.
I don't know what to make of that. sometimes I think I have to feed the grown-up and mature a little bit, but the child-half complains this is a reductive and boring decision.
OTOH, the self-destructive habits are probably hurting my judgment, etc.