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Male, 21 years old
city, state, Southern US

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Interests: Poetry / Books / Feminism / Music / Arts/Crafts
Homepage: (None)
Birthday:8/1/1997 (21 Years Old)
IM Type: (Decline to State) IM Name:
Occupation: Sales Associate
Marital Status: Single
Sexual Preference: Bisexual
Religion: Christian
Politics: Liberal
Fav. Movie: Amelie
Fav. TV Show: X-Files
Fav. Book: Perks Of Being A Wallflower
Fav. Song: Hiding - Pianos Become The Teeth
Fav. Food: bugs
Fav. Car: 2001 Mitsubishi Eclipse
Theme 'Just peachy' created by Rolez
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im on the drug! im on the drug! im on the drug that killed river phoenix! - Mood:Good
Sunday March 10 20191:38:08 AM |
not really. i don’t do coke or morphine. also i don’t do anything other than pot. i just like the band tism

i’m... depressed. obviously. grass is green. but more importantly, i’m mad about being depressed. i just want to be f-cking not depressed god f-cking damn it. im OVER IT. IT ISNT FAIR. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY

everything just keeps going wrong and has been for years

why wont it just get better

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So, I`m putting my dog down on Friday - Mood:Good
Monday February 04 20192:49:15 PM |
She's 14 years old. Her face is full white, her eyes are cloudy. She can barely walk. I'm pretty sure she's going deaf too.

It's one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I always assumed that maybe she would pass away in her sleep when it got to this point. I think that would be easier. But to know that my decision is the one that's ending her life makes it so much harder.

I'm not ready to say goodbye. This is harder than anything else i've ever had to do.

She was such a damn good dog. I'm gonna miss her so much.

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there are no words in the english language i could scream to drown you out - Mood:Good
Wednesday January 23 201912:15:32 AM |
i cant do it anymore

im trying so hard and nothing can shake this feeling. i just want this pain to end. cause if it doesnt end soon i will force it to.

i need clarity or professional help

drugs dont help
alcohol doesnt help
exercising and eating healthy doesnt help
prozac doesnt help

nothing helps

everyone leaves
im god and im the only one who can validate myself but i dont know because its impossible to feel valid

jesus christ i feel so pathetic. i dont know what to do anymore. i just wish i had someone to talk to but i dont

i literally sobbed for 25 minutes before work and then forced myself to throw up to calm down

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