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Male, 19 years old
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Interests: Poetry / Books / Feminism / Music / Arts/Crafts
Homepage: (None)
Birthday:8/1/1997 (19 Years Old)
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Occupation: Sales Associate
Marital Status: Single
Sexual Preference: Bisexual
Religion: Christian
Politics: Liberal
Fav. Movie: Amelie
Fav. TV Show: X-Files
Fav. Book: Perks Of Being A Wallflower
Fav. Song: Hiding - Pianos Become The Teeth
Fav. Food: bugs
Fav. Car: 2001 Mitsubishi Eclipse
Theme 'Just peachy' created by Rolez
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well - Mood:Good
Wednesday March 22 201711:03:58 PM |
i just got kicked out of my house. my mom

for no reason

like.. genuinely no reason. things were going okay at home. i hadn't even talked to my mom in a few days. i just came home from a movie (belko experiment. it was fine. just okay) and my mom was like "i cut the data off your phone. it was the only thing i could do aside from delete the account entirely. next im gonna take your car and shut off the wifi. you need to save up for rent."

so i'm here for right now but i feel like within two weeks i'm OUT. and i have no idea why. i feel so blindsided

and i have 400 dollars exactly to my name and i cant like

afford to move out

like even if i had enough money to afford a downpayment, i can't afford to like.. live. i'm working for minimum wage 30 hours rn. i gotta get a second job i guess but that isn't gonna help me like.. within the next month

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Writing things down - Mood:Good
Tuesday March 14 20172:54:20 AM |
Im getting a tattoo in 12 hours

I have to pee

I went on a date today and it went absolutely nowhere I really wanna make out with someone

I finished season 2 of love its such a good show

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Saturday March 11 20174:50:36 PM |


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In measured hundredweight and penny pound. When the man comes around. - Mood:Good
Saturday March 04 20172:45:10 AM |
Logan was the best movie i have ever seen. Not an exaggeration. The best movie. I have ever seen.

Life is okay. Im not like... in love with life, but I'm hanging in there. I have a good friend, that i like genuinely as a friend. Theyre kinda my only friend right now but thats more than ive had for a hot minute

Im so tired i gotta be up at 5:30 in the AM and im pissed about it

But Logan was so f-cking worth it

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Happy journal - Mood:Good
Friday February 24 20175:15:01 PM |
I think im slowly coming to terms with the fact that my worth is not in someone elses hands and i do not need to be with someone to make me happy. Now i just need to make myself happy

But i also really need friends lol
Cause i have a grand total of 0

Start my new job tomorrow. Excitement! Living life!

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She told me "i think you have co-dependency issued" - Mood:Good
Wednesday February 22 201712:10:35 AM |
I told her i need to be addicted to something or i lose my f-cking mind

She doesnt understand
I dont even understand

But she doesnt know the half of things

I still want to kill myself sometimes

Something about it just feels right, romantic almost. Its more of a lingering thought than a drive to do it. I need to express mental pain in a more healthy way than "i want to die i want to be dead heres a bad habit i picked up"

Luckily its not drugs or alcohol or random sex with random people

Its being annoyingly clingy with someone who dpes not want me to be. But i dont know how to be normal

I just want to be normal
In general

I dont want to be like this but i always come back to it

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I quit my job - Mood:Good
Saturday February 11 201712:11:00 PM |
I got hired at the salon that wanted me

I start monday

I was like "yeah dont worry about it when i put in my two weeks she'll probably just tell me to clean out my station and go"


One i got terrible anxiety about it and almost had a panic attack
Second she was like "yeah work out a notice" so i'm like "dammit :/"

I textedy new boss and she's like "youre still coming monday though right?" Of course of course just not after that for 2 weeks

Its gonna be great though. Said she didnt want me on front desk. Just straight up doing hair. Gonna pay me minimum wage or commission (whichever is higher) for three months. After that its gonna bottom out and im just on commission

Im nervous but nows the time to do it if I'm gonna

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Valentines day! - Mood:Good
Friday February 10 20175:53:17 AM |
Love is in the air yt

And i suck at love

This girl and i have been going out a month. And i want to give her a good valentines day without being like.... a total sleezeball

So weve talked beforehand and set a budget on valentines day and like decided we're not gonna do anything grand or big

BUT the limit is 30 dollars. Which i was like "yeah sure thats fine" but now i'm lookin at prices of flower boquets and im like "uhhhhhh"

I was gonna have flowers delivered to her at work. But the cheapest i can find is 57. Which is like.....a little bit pricey in general. And like. Id do it if idve known ahead of time thats how much it cost i woulda saved up some. (Without the budget of course)

So now i'm thinking orher options so im like "maybe just buy a boquet and have a friend bring it in it's not like that makes a huge difference and she probably wouldnt even know..." except.

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Can i get advice if I promise to take it to heart - Mood:Good
Saturday February 04 201712:07:30 PM |
I work at a salon

And i dont love it

Like....its alright sometimes, but honestly theres a lot i would change. But, I'm learning a lot and i like my coworkers alright
And i get a discount at the papa johns next door
And we have an elvis impersonator as a client now

But i got an offer at another salon

They sought me out.

But its further away and id be doing front desk 2 days outnof the week instead of hair. And id lose my one on one apprenticeship.

But its also a great salon and i feel very conflicted and i dont know what to do or even what i want

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Currently theres an elvis impersonator in my salon (ama) - Mood:Good
Friday February 03 20176:12:51 PM |
And boy does he think he's THE STUFF

Ask me things. Either about Felvis or just stuff in general

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Outside there`s a boxcar waiting - Mood:Good
Friday January 27 20177:54:57 PM |
Things are good

Really good actually

Like when they stop being good its gonna suck just as bad as before

Is that a thing? Having anxiety because things are good?

Im really falling for the new girl. Like a lot.

My parents are about to fulltime foster-possibly to adopt- a 16 year old transgendered girl.

Work is going okay but i wish my boss would choose whether she wants me to be a one on one assistant or a general assistant because im really tired all the f-cking time because in all honesty I'm both

I'm going to see GROUPLOVE on monday which is cool because they were my first live music experience so im pretty stoked.

Thats life right now

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YOU AS YOU ARE - Mood:Good
Friday December 16 201612:52:55 AM |
Whats up show me your mug
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