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| WTF MATE - Mood:Good|
Sunday February 03 20197:40:20 PM |
|SOMEONE LOCKED MY JOURNAL BUT I DIDN’T GET A SPAM WARNING. DOES ANYONE WANT TO TELL ME WHO DID THAT AND WHAT IT MEANS?|
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| i`m not sure, but i`m sure i`m scared - Mood:Good|
Sunday February 03 20192:28:52 AM |
|so... buttons on your underwear.|
i was, like, just on the internet. and i went and i was looking and just seeing it. and then...
so my company that i work for is really small. and it has a really dainty website. just sits where it is and i'm assuming it is very lightly trafficked. i recall another one of such a nature and so forth for another company that i worked for in less of a capacity for many a time.
but on the website. the discussion. okay.
so at work there are people who want... i mean it's just a guy. he wants to help me become a programmer to help him get stuff done. because he thinks i understand the technology well.
but on the website they posted the thing...
it's like it's what he tells me it will be when he's done.
but on the same website!
on the same website it says they like to hire internally. so this is a real life carrot.
i like carrots
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| a series of events - Mood:Good|
Sunday January 27 20191:01:35 PM |
|so yesterday was good. pretty good. i went to bring up wood and do chores at my grandmother's house. it was a nice chat.|
then on the way home i stopped at the brewery and had a beer. it was okay. it was better the last time i had that one. too carbonated. but they gave me free tickets to a brewfest.
so i went home and listened to one half of bringing it all back home. then...
well i was supposed to go to a concert with my brother. at like eight. his suggestion. but this brewfest was around where he lives. so i texted him.
the concert was mellencamp bryan adams tribute or something. wouldn't have been my cup of tea.
but this brewfest was certainly my stein of beer!
really good stuff. a lot of fun. the only one i had ever been to. had chili and a chicken cheese thing with hot sauce.
there was at most two dozen breweries there but it was basically all you could drink.
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| blipping in your radar - Mood:Good|
Saturday January 19 20193:49:18 PM |
|i was maybe going to a memorial service today. i ended up being up too late and sleeping in until right before my parents were leaving. i didn't know the person very well. i had met them a handful of times. probably more of a parents thing. probably would have been a lot of faces that i did not know.|
there's also supposed to be a snowstorm today. kind of unrelated but hopefully everyone drives safe on the way back from the services.
i did actually speak to this person for a brief period at my cousin's wedding. strange. that was only a few months ago. he seemed fine. apparently it was aggressive cancer.
so anyway. i've got no big plans. no significant events occurring. just hunkering down for the snow this weekend.
now that i think of it i think i'm going to replenish my beer supply. i've cut it down to mostly just on the weekends. but i have been imbibing on days off
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| was i mindful. really all i should think about. - Mood:Good|
Sunday January 13 20191:47:19 PM |
this stuff challenges me a lot of times. this guy is a strange character. i like his music. that's a book he wrote. it was a small production so they're just being sold used. the cheapest i saw was around one fifty on ebay.
i just listened to this album with this song as it's centerpiece.
i haven't researched him much prior to this. he has some declaration of faith in his songs. i found some interviews. he said this once.
"I have powers as dictated by the limits of my immediate human incarnation, that is, limitless powers in combination. I am a power, as are we all. This plain fact should humble one, prior to exaltation in The Lord."
i think it's genuine. i think he wishes to convey the music as the realm of the mystic
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| joe boffer - Mood:Good|
Tuesday January 08 20191:34:51 PM |
|what a great guy that joe boffer is...|
i've got a week left. next monday i'll be a permanent employee. kind of a frightening thought though. the use of the word permanent.
i know from my last job. when you are coming in from a staffing agency, and they make that determination, that is what they would like to see you do. when they say permanent what they mean is that they need this task accomplished. if you drew a picture of the facility. and there's a system that requires something. like a circuit i guess. there needs to be a switch, or a resistor, or a solenoid right there at that exact point.
it's not hiring it's installing.
thankfully, my boss recommended a raise and they obliged. so. on the finance side. things should be fine for a while. tax returns may very well turn into a down payment on an apartment.
i'll keep just doing my damnedest. that's all i've been doing.
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| does the future every really begin? - Mood:Good|
Monday December 31 20189:13:51 PM |
|i might be able to improve a few things. i might be able to grow up. i'd like to make my tax returns into something positive. last year it was a car. this year could be a down payment on an apartment. if that makes sense at this point.|
i ran today. i could try and do that more often again. it wasn't too cold. i felt good. the loop is just under a mile and a half. enough to get my heart racing as long as i maintain my pace.
niece and nephew are here because my brother and sister in law are at a party in their neighborhood. we watched a youtube new years countdown for kids and my niece thought it was cool.
i could always try and cut back even more on the smoking. just fight the boredom cigarette. fight the roll out of bed cigarette. fight the end of the night cigarette.
just kind of enjoy it with my coffee. chatting with coworkers on break. driving smokes are hit or miss
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| now i wanna sniff some glue - Mood:Good|
Sunday December 23 20189:00:23 PM |
|i made this...|
and and and…
i woke up. and i found a blood drive. and i drove towards the blood drive. and got pulled over driving out of town for a brake light but got out of it because i was going to a blood drive.
then i made that thing. and am hoping to solve other problems that come across my desk with a similar method. present it to my boss. i remembered all the numbers and the equation and wrote it down when i got home on friday.
then i went to a friend's house that i used to work with. and we went to a friend of her's apartment and i drank beer and they drank wine. and after doing whole blood when i'm used to double reds i quickly dehydrated and politely vomited in the toilet. and cleaned up after myself.
then we played cards against humanity. and i used the card "a vagina that leads to another universe" perfectly.
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| do you ever get the nos or the no ways? - Mood:Good|
Tuesday December 18 20181:33:19 PM |
|the slyness of it. i'm working with people still. obviously. but the trend, the thread that permeates throughout the workforce, the thing that slithers through the grass... it's just people don't proceed immediately in front of themselves. do you understand what i mean? i'm assuming more than some of you have some form of office job. politics in the office is a thing that involves leveraging authority and romances and commiseration. there's an argument of wills pursuing something common.|
in manufacturing the conversation is of wills, but the conversation leans more towards the wills of yes and no. there is the veiled no. that's what slithers. it's ever present. there's always the yes but not really. it is manifest so many ways.
and there's the yes men and the no men. and the yes women and the no women. and it weighs on it. i don't want to punish it.
i want to reason with it.
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