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Male, 25 years old
Too Cold, Minnesota, Midwest US

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Career Opportunities The Clash
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Interests: Music / Socializing / Acting / Singing / Theater
Homepage: (None)
Birthday:8/27/1993 (25 Years Old)
IM Type: MSN IM Name:
Occupation: Guest Services
Marital Status: Single
Sexual Preference: Straight
Religion: (Decline to State)
Politics: Liberal
Fav. Movie: It`s Such a Beautiful Day
Fav. TV Show: BoJack Horseman
Fav. Book: Golden Son - Pierce Brown
Fav. Song: Avant Gardener - Courtney Barnett
Fav. Food: Pizza is my muse.
Fav. Car: I prefer walking.
 
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And last night I blacked out in my car and I woke up in my childhood bed. Wishing I was someone else, feeling sorry for myself. When I remembered, someone’s kid is dead. - Mood:Good
Saturday September 22 20184:28:26 AM |
I’m doing the whole song lyrics are my journal title thing now

I’ve discovered I’m one of those people that loves Hobo Johnson.

Anyway.

The other night worker at my hotel is quitting and so is another guy.
The AGM asked me about what I thought about with my future with the hotel.
The GM is leaving in a few weeks, a good chance the AGM moves up.
He seemed pleased when I told him I was happy at the desk and preferred being the flexible person working nights a few times a week and are hoping I’ll be useful in the transition and new hiring process.

I mean I lied of course. I’m not happy. But I’m getting by somehow so I gotta do what I can.

I flat out told a coworker I don’t want to work for a hotel for my entire lif, but it’s probably gonna get me to the cities I gotta do it

What can I do to make myself completely independent
Or just feel like I’m not some corporate cog
Or have purpose

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I’m in the hospital right now - Mood:Good
Sunday September 09 201810:26:42 PM |
Breathing troubles came back full force
They said I wasn’t taking I’m hardly any oxygen.
I’m going to have to stay overnight
They’re going to run some electronic test thing
I’ll keep y’all poste when I can
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You said you would communicate better. So what, will you send me a tea soaked letter? - Mood:Good
Thursday September 06 201812:11:45 AM |
Wonder I see you delting. I had a response typed out and then suddenly poof it was gone.

I’m realizing tonight I’m desperate for human communication.
I haven’t had a real conversation with anyone in like a week.
I just finished a run of six overnights in a row and I am
Dead inside.

This entire week I’ve been falling asleep right after work only to wake up 4-5 hours later and not be able to sleep again.
Right now is the time id be starting work and I’m ready for bed. But I’ve got so much racing through my mind.

I’m sick of hotel work. I wanna feel like I’m doing something that has some sort out creative outlet to it, but I have no idea what I actually want to do.
How does one completely turn their life around?

Anyone else excited for BoJack season 5? Cmon people talk to me I need communication even if it is from you losers.

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Now tell the dead man you’re the one who’s dying. - Mood:Good
Friday August 31 20186:12:06 PM |
Christ, Camp Cope’s new album is good. Like top three for me this year.

Anyway, turned 25 on Monday. For those that remember my other journal about the bs drama, C and J were out of town for a weekend so it all worked out. Hung out with A, another buddy, and my brother. Good time. Got German food and sang some karaoke.

Messed up my sleep schedule something fierce Tuesday after falling asleep for a nap at 5pm that lasted until 11.
Fixed it now, but tonight’s gonna be overnight number 2 of six in a row.

I’ve been sitting pretty at 240lbs as of late. This time last year I was at 270. I’d like to be under 200 by next June, which is when I’m hoping to move.
I really wanna spend the next 9 months just improving myself and getting to a better place before I set out on a new adventure.
Called my dad today. First time in months. I was actually calling him back cause I had to work Monday and

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I’m beginning to think my employers don’t respect their employees - Mood:Good
Thursday August 02 201810:08:25 PM |
I had to call in sick today.
Came down with something. Congested. Constantly running nose. Headache. Tension everywhere. Couldn’t fall asleep.
Was scheduled to work 3-11.
I called in at around 9.
Keep in mind, since starting at the desk I have never called in sick and have never been late.
I’m fully aware that there is someone scheduled to work 2-9 who’d be more than willing to move to the 3-11, and that we aren’t gonna be incredibly busy tonight.

So anyway I call my boss, and he starts asking about my symptoms.
That’s normal, whatever. I tell him everything.

The part that is actually pissing me off is that he says “well you can’t be sure how you’ll feel in a few hours so if you could call again shortly before your time to let me know if you’re still not feeling well.”

Meanwhile talking to me like I’m a goddamn child who’s probably just faking it.

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My boss said something that confused me today - Mood:Good
Saturday July 28 20181:46:25 AM |
He told me he had never seen me in such a good mood before. Apparently the last three days I’ve been in a noticeablely good mood at work.
I attribute it to me getting refreshed from four days off, but even so I’m confused by it.
Mostly because once I get home I just usually immediately fall into some kind of really bad depression again and start hating my life and whatever you know my mental health history you get the jist.

I guess I don’t know what it is then
Or why I’m even making a journal about it
Mostly boredom.

Also because I need advice on how to start planning for completely upending myself and moving in like ten months?
I need to get out of here.
Also look at this picture of Dante



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