(46 Years Old)
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|Occupation:|| Wastewater treatment plant opperator|
|Fav. Movie:|| Jacobs Ladder|
|Fav. TV Show:|| Air Wolf|
|Fav. Book:|| Winds of War/War and Remembrance by H. Wouk|
|Fav. Song:|| Echos- Pink Floyd|
|Fav. Food:|| pizza|
|Fav. Car:|| 69 Lincoln Continental Mark III||
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| Alone at night. I think I'll make a Journal entry. - Mood:Good|
Monday September 14 20152:12:50 AM |
|Yesterday was nice. I tried to nap after work but couldn't fall aslep. Tim and I went and got the boat then washed it at Stacey's house because someone was parked out front of ours. It was cool, 67 degrees and cloudy. We didn't get out of the boat all day, just floated and talked. Well, that's wrong. It started sprinkling and Stacey wanted to go to mailbox where there was shelter. Tim said no, I can follow it on the radar and avoid the most of it. They got into an argument and Tim dropped the girls off at the dock. He called five minutes later to let them know the rain had stopped. They said they would wait in the car (she had drove separately) I thought she left) until it had all passed.|
So Tim and I motored up and down the river having a good time talking about sh*t and drinking beer. We got hit with maybe 50 raindrops in the time it took for the girls to be brave enough to come back.
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| I`ve really been snarfing up the journal forum lately - Mood:Good|
Saturday September 12 20151:11:01 AM |
|I had a really good visit with my kids today We did some origami, played with k'nex and talked about addiction. I'm glad I f*cked up. I want my kids to know what a struggle addiction is so that they go into life with their eyes open and make the right choices. I'm going to repost what I posted in the quitting thread and on Facebook later. OS will disappear and YT might outlast FB the way this crazy f'ed up world works.|
On the last day of a 13 day stretch. Boating tomorrow.
I'm writing an album of country/southern rock songs. I think it's great stuff and it should go somewhere. I may be wrong but I don't give a f*ck because I'm having fun doing it Better than mourning the past.
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| I`m the luckiest son of a bitch on the planet. - Mood:Good|
Friday September 11 201512:06:41 AM |
|Last night I texted my ex asking about birthday and Christmas ideas She asked me if my family was going to be here at birthday times and I told her my mom moves back here next Tuesday. She said "If you wouldn't feel too awkward you should be there too." I replied "I've been waiting 6 years for you to say that" She sent back a . |
This will be the first time I've seen my kids on their birthday since the divorce.
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| I`m here all night people. AMA and I might give my thoughts on you. - Mood:Good|
Friday September 04 20159:59:47 PM |
|I've been wanting to do an "Ask me my opinion of you" thread but I get vapor lock in the brain so I can't just spit it out, I have to talk about me, my favorite subject to prime the pump. And that's still no guarantee that I'll come up with something right away. It may take a few minutes, a few hours, weeks, idk. I'll keep bumping this till I get to everyone.|
I haven't smoked in 14 days and 12 hours. Go me.
I'm on day 6 with 7 days to go of working from 7pm to 7am. I could have had Saturday off this week but I told Jerry if he wanted a 3 day weekend it was up to him because he gave me the last two Saturdays off. Jerry took the 3 days and I'm fine with working until the 12th.
I told my boss I started studying for my Class III Wastewater License on the first but screw that noise. The test isn't until October 9th so I'm waiting until it's 30 days out.
a few more 4 900
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| Come boating on the Ohio River - Mood:Good|
Monday August 24 201512:15:07 AM |
|Pics to follow because I hate doing them on the first post.|
It was a beautiful day yesterday, barely getting to 85 degrees. It felt like somebody had the AC on while the boat was moving. Was a great way to spend the day after working eight days in a row.
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| I`m quitting smoking and the VA thinks I`m an alcoholic. - Mood:Good|
Friday August 21 201512:21:16 AM |
|Had my annual physical at the VA today. Thank dog I'm not fifty yet so nothing was shoved up my ass. My labs are ok even though I forgot to fast before the blood draw. During the exam the doc asked if I wanted to quit smoking. I said yes, I've been trying on an off all year. So she hooked me up with 2 two week boxes of patches. $78 worth (pre tax) for an $8 co-pay. Socialized medicine good.|
So next on her agenda was my drinking habits. Like a pro she just asked an open ended question. "How much do you drink in a week?"
I knew the right answer but I told her the truth anyway. I don't lie to my doctors about anything because they can't help you if you're not honest. So I stuck to the best policy even though I think nothing's wrong, knowing full well the pain in the ass it was going to cause me.
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| I deleted a journal for the first time ever. - Mood:Good|
Wednesday August 19 201511:24:35 PM |
|I suspected what I was doing with OK Cupid was probably wrong, but I didn't know it until I trudged through a half dozen pages of their legal notice. After their disclaimers that anything you post can be exploited and they won't be held liable they say that you can download pics for personal use but not repost them.|
So that journal is gone now and I won't be posting anymore pics from there.
I did it for a laugh knowing it was probably wrong.
What's some of the crazy sh*t you've done for a laugh knowing it could get you busted?
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| From Here To Eternity. - Mood:Disgusted|
Saturday August 15 20153:20:20 AM |
|So I finally got news about David. |
Recap for those of you who don't hang on my every post.
David Works when I'm off. He got a Hernia on the 28th of July. He's been waiting on Worker's Comp to contact him about seeing a surgeon. He got fed up with waiting and went down there. They said they mailed him a letter a week ago. He never got it because the city gave worker's comp the wrong address. They assumed he miraculously got better and were going to close the case.
Anyway, he gets to talk to the surgeon on September 8th. Then he'll get a surgery date. Then 4-6 weeks recovery minimum.
So I get 1 day off a week (usually Thursday) until about the middle to end of October. Don't forget, I'm doing 12 hour days so I really have no time. Get home, 2 beers, go to bed. Lather, rinse, repeat.
The only good thing is 32 hours overtime pay each week.
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| Robotic Dinosaurs! - Mood:Good|
Monday August 10 201512:22:11 AM |
|Friday my sister and I took my kids to see robotic dinosaurs. It was 18 for adults and 22 for kids. The dinosaurs were kind of cheesy and we were feeling ripped off until we got to the rest of the attraction. Of course you had to walk through the gift shop after seeing the dinosaurs but once you were through they had inflatable slides and a bouncy house. We spent maybe a half hour with the dinosaurs and then for three and a half hours my kids had a blast playing on the inflatables. It made me so happy to see them having a great time on there last Friday before school starts on Monday.|
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| Things are getting better. - Mood:Good|
Sunday August 02 201511:57:38 PM |
|I had my best birthday present ever. My kids forgot to bring it on Friday for our regular visit so on Saturday I get an unexpected text. My ex wants to meet somewhere to give it to me. It was the first time in 5 1/2 years we've met with no one else present and it was her idea. We met in the parking lot of the Sonic close to her house and I got to see my kids for about a half hour before going to work. That's what was the best. I havn't seen them on my birthday since the divorce.|
The thing they got me?
A cheap grey t-shirt that says something about being a veteran. I don't know if it's still in my truck or if I took it in my room.
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| 10,000th post dedicated to BSR - Mood:Good|
Saturday August 01 20151:38:24 AM |
|Because he welcomed me back in a true YT manner after my 8 year hiatus.|
I say that coming back 3 years ago was a good idea. I work the nightshift alone and you guys make me laugh, cry and think.
I also think I know myself a little better and I hope I'm becoming a better me by paying attention to how I'm received.
Journally stuff. My dad ran a red light 2 weeks ago and totaled his car. 2 days ago he ran off the road and flipped the new car he replaced the first one with.
Long story short he's going to sell his house and move up here with me, as in we are going to live in the same house. I love my dad and he cooks better than I do so things should work out fine.
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| Trapped at work for who knows how long. - Mood:Disgusted|
Wednesday July 29 201511:23:37 PM |
|So I woke up this morning to a phone call from my boss telling me David had a hernia and he wouldn't be able to make it into work tonight. The automatic bar screen was broke so David was manually cleaning it when he felt a pop and a burning sensation near his belly button. They aren't going to operate until probably next week.|
So I'm no longer off for my birthday Saturday.
I was going to give my ex $200 for school supplies next payday but now I'm upping it to 3 because I can afford to. The rest of the OT is going into savings after I buy some good beer for a mighty drunk once he's back to work.
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| I`ve been thinking too much lately - Mood:Cautious|
Tuesday July 07 20159:46:54 AM |
|About what might happen the next time I go crazy.|
Last time I woke up in an alley laying on the ground peeking out from under a green army blanket. I saw three pair of shiny black shoes running up and heard more coming up behind me.
I should write an article on that.
Long story short after a brief chokehold I ended up in jail for 2 nights.
Then the hospital for 5 days.
But I'm worried about what might happen next time. So far I haven't hurt anyone. But I have threatened to hurt people. Once I regained my sanity would I be able to live with myself?
I just want to believe my medication will keep me safe.
I'm afraid of taking this new pill.
What if one of the side effects threw me over the edge?
It's happened before.
I just want to go back to the time I could say "I like turtles" and mean it with every fiber of my being.
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| It hurts my neck to look up but I may do it. - Mood:Good|
Saturday July 04 20153:55:20 AM |
|My ex has agreed to let me and my sister take my kids to Marengo Cave next Friday. It's about 2 hours away. This is the first time in 5 years she's been cool with us leaving the city limits. We also talked about how I acted when I went nuts. First time to talk about that since the divorce. So a bit of a thawing in the relationship. Maybe in six or seven hundred years we'll get back together.|
When I got my bi-weekly shot last Wednesday the nurse asked me how I felt. I told her I've been stuck between depressed and happy for the last few months. Not going up or down. A nice place to rest but I want to move on. She said she'd talk to the doc. She called yesterday and said that he prescribed me a new medicine and that it would be in the mail to me. I don't know how I feel about this. I'd like to be happy naturally and not depend on a pill.
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| snarf life update, AMA, advice and I`m getting drunk. - Mood:Good|
Tuesday June 02 201511:23:44 AM |
|I'm on vacation, bitches. Got off work at 7 am and don't have to be back until next Tuesday at 7 pm.|
I'm going to ride my bike to the Garden of the Gods and walk around a bit in a few days. Pics to follow.
Also going to work on E's motor for his '78 Honda CB400. I won't bore you with that.
Might ride to my Dad's but I was just there last weekend and I'm gong to be there Father's day.
Now going to piss and grab beer #4. Alternating between New Belgium Fat Tire and Guinness Blonde.
Listening to David Gilmour Live in Gdansk.
Typing on my tablet using the Bluetooth keyboard so I don't have spell check and you can see how attrociouse my spelling really is.
Now for the best news I've had in 5 years.
My mom is moving back here in September. This means I'll be able to see my kids for longer than the hour and a half each Friday that I see them now.
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| Mechanical updates. - Mood:Good|
Sunday May 03 20152:42:58 AM |
|I got my bike running again last week. Last winter I kept thinking I was going to ride it more and I put off adding Sta-Bil to the gas. So when I tried to ride it December 26 to see my kids as it was warming up one of the carburetors started dumping fuel on the ground. The crap ethanol gasoline had gummed up one of the needles so when the float tried to shut of the fuel flow it got stuck in the bore.|
So I pulled the carbs (made easier because I replaced the Philips screws with allen head bolts on the clamps) popped off the fuel bowls and used q-tips and carb cleaner on it. The gaskets appeared in good shape so I took a chance and didn't change them.
I put the carbs back on, took the battery off the trickle charger and installed it. I put the gas tank back on and filled it half way with fresh gas (the old stuff went in the lawnmower can.) After 3 10 second cranks it fired right up.
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| U as U Wuz - Mood:Good|
Thursday February 05 20158:30:31 AM |
|Orangefanta asked for a picture of me as a Marine and I thought it was a good excuse to start a Wuz thread. I don't care if it was last week, last year or last century. |
Let's get some nostalgia up in here.
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| 7-11, OK Cupid and Wasp. - Mood:Good|
Wednesday February 04 201511:49:57 PM |
|I work 12 hour shifts so extra days are a little harder than with regular 8 hour days. I came into work last night knowing I was going to do 7 in a row so "D" the other guy on nights could go test for his class 4 certification. Tu, W scheduled: Th, F for him: Sa, Su, M scheduled.|
When I check my e-mail my boss asks if I can cover for "D" next TU and W so he can get 18 hours training for recertification on his class 3 liscence in case he doesn't pass the test (again). I said yes and automaticly that means I have to work Th and F because I'm scheduled for them.
So I'm working from the 3rd to the 13th. At least I'll be saving money on beer because I'll never have any time off.
Ok. Enough Bitching. At least I'm getting 48 hours overtime on my next check and I'll be too tired to spend it so my savings account will grow.
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| Five words to ruin a job interview. - Mood:Good|
Wednesday January 21 20156:19:46 AM |
|Heard this on Bob and Tom.|
What five words can you say to ruin a job interview?
It's like a haiku, you're only allowed 5.
Some examples from the show:
I hate it here already.
Have you seen my vodka?
I almost didn't make bail.
That's not my real name.
My (lame) contribution:
Can I bring my cat?
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| LaBostella was spot on - Mood:Good|
Sunday December 28 201410:21:19 PM |
|with her Tarot card reading. I didn't want to spam or hijack her thread because I have a lot to say about it so I made this journal. |
Before I begin I want you to know that I'm an atheist, not a believer but I am impressed with how a random card draw and a little knowledge about someone's life can push so many buttons in my mind. I think it says more about the insight and skill of the interpreter than it does about mysterious forces.
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| I`ve been back two years. AMA - Mood:Good|
Saturday December 27 20149:43:42 PM |
|I think I've grown some in that time. Opening up on here has helped me to open up IRL. I've been pretty honest about who I am and whatnot but I do tend to leave things out unless asked directly so I'll try to be more complete about my answers this time.|
I don't expect this to take off so what I'll probably end up doing is putting down things that pop into my head over the next 10 hours just so I have a record to look back on next year.
Journaly thing. Went out to a bar last night and I realized I have absolutely no clue how to start a conversation. I usually listen and like to riff off what others are saying. I didn't see anyone showing interest last night, even after 3 awesome karaoke renditions, but even if I had I wouldn't know what to do about it. So if I don't get any suggestions I'm going to start putting down horrible pick up lines too.
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| I`m feeling better than I usually do this time of year - Mood:Good|
Sunday December 14 201411:08:07 PM |
|My medication has a little to do with it but I was on the same dose last year and I was suicidal.|
Meditation helps a bit. When I feel my mind racing I can slow it down sometimes.
Positive thinking is a big one. Seeing where I am and comparing it to where I've been or the situations others are dealing with puts things in perspective.
But the biggest thing is friends. I work alone and you guys keep me from feeling isolated. I've had some really good advice on here that's helped me deal with my life.
But as good as YT is it can't compare to people being physically with you. I have two roommates now and four guys that come over regularly. Two years ago I was living alone and at my lowest point. Now I have people around me that keep me from sinking too low.
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| Thanks YT - Mood:Good|
Saturday November 22 20141:30:16 AM |
|I was feeling all down and woe is me and was sorely tempted to write a whiney journal entry.|
But then I started acting like and idiot in old school and now I feel better. The thought people having to look at my pathetic ass with no spoiler protection makes me chuckle. I'm even considering buying a trenchcoat and flashing people downtown. That ought to be laugh out loud funny.
So now instead of wallowing in self pity I'm trying to list the good things going on in my life.
I see my kids every week and I know they love me.
I have a stable job that's given me 89 hours of overtime in the last 3 weeks so Christmas is taken care of.
I have a good place to live and two great roommates who keep me from becoming a hermit.
I'm sure more will come to me but for now I have questions.
What's good in your life?
When was the last time YT took you out of a dark mood?
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| Holy Sh*t someone bought me a key! - Mood:Good|
Sunday November 02 201410:48:52 PM |
|I always told myself that I would never buy a key, someone else would have to shell out.|
So thank you mysterious key buying person.
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| Information is free. Knowledge will cost you. - Mood:Good|
Tuesday July 01 20141:35:34 AM |
|Someone's probably said that before but the thought came to me out of the blue so I'm claiming it as mine.|
I just had a new roommate move in so there's 3 of us in the house now. I've known the guy for years and we've never had a problem so this should work out ok.
His son's 1979 Honda CB400 motorcycle has appeared to have thrown a rod and they've asked me to fix it. I've never done the bottom end of an engine before but I know I can do it. It's a project that I've always wanted to take on and now I have a chance to do it.
I'm on day 7 of 7 12 hour days at work, trying to make the time go by. I'll probably YT after I get off work because there will be no one home an hour after I get there in the morning. I've been lurking all week, just haven't felt like posting. I need to post more so I can practice having conversations. Working alone is making me even more quiet than I naturally am.
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