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Female, 32 years old
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i won`t have to anymore jon groff

Interests: Dogs / Dancing / Games / Poetry / Singing
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Birthday:10/11/1985 (32 Years Old)
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Occupation: Dancer
Marital Status: Married
Sexual Preference: (Decline to State)
Religion: Other
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Fav. Movie: good will hunting, you`ve got mail, dead poets
Fav. TV Show: House, macgyver, poker
Fav. Book: Without You by Anthony Rapp
Fav. Song: i like broadway :-) and singer/songwriters
Fav. Food: free. i like free food.
Fav. Car: bah. walkings where its at
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Life water: Agave Lemonade. Bought because of a recommendation by a YTer. Disturbing. - Mood:Good
Thursday March 19 200912:32:23 PM |
Its not bad. Not orgasmic or anything. but not bad

Today is unpleasant. We woke up at about 7am. Well, okay, *I* woke up at 6am, couldn't so back to sleep so i woke him up at about 7am He told me to go back to sleep i said i don't work that way, i will be wide awake now until about 10am. Then crash.

So he said ok, lets watch a movie, then go back to sleep at 10am, then i can help him with some stuff he has to do, he'll bring me home around 3pm. I liked that plan.

But noooooooo His mom was coming my way anyway, so after we watched a movie she said so and the boy volunteered me to go home with his mother (so we could bond yes. Because i want to bond with his mother after 3 hour of sleep). I got no nap, i got no helping him out, and i got way WAY too freaking early.

However, i was a total spazz about it and have since apologized

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Journey to The center Of my sister`s House. - Mood:Good
Wednesday March 18 20093:16:15 PM |
So, i made cakeballs, as i'm sure the world is aware of now. And i've been delivering them. Thing is i don't have a car. So i've been walking them around.

I brought some to my aunt monday, planning on going to my sister's today.

My aunt is 4.67 miles away, my sister is 4.13, according to mapquest. I've walked to my aunts house a ton of times though, but i've never walked to my sisters. I have to walk down all one road, but its a busy road. Hm. Could be interesting.

I have another reason for walking 8 miles today though, i'm planning on sleeping over ym bf's house, he goes to bed at about 10pm, i go to bed at about 5am. So i'm trying to tire myself out.

Fun times.

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So have i mentioned that i`m scared out of my mind to start taking the pill? (a paranoid rant) - Mood:Good
Wednesday March 18 200912:50:47 AM |

So, now that i have my period and am all woo not pregnant... now i get to start taking the pill.

OH the fear. Why? One main reason: Emetophobia.

I read the whole damn instructions/side effects/ read this before you start taking paper thingy.
People don't understand phobias yo. If i actually choke one of these things down, and continue to take these things it'll be a miracle.

Even if you take out the COMMON side effect of stomach upsetness, all the rest of the side effects are scaring the bajesus out of me.

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Its one of those annoying cakeball threads/ gross girly threads. A lovely combination. - Mood:Good
Tuesday March 17 20095:31:27 PM |
So i was thinking about making another batch, but with different flavors.

I need suggestion! for cake/ frosting flavors.

The red velvet was good cuz its wasn't very sweet. what other flavors aren't sweet?
I was thinking:


-angel food

OR keep the red velvet and get a different frosting.

OR get a vanilla and dye it green/red


So i can't decide if i wanna rent another movie today. I have to walk up to return the ones from yesterday anyway, but i dunno.

I have awful awful cramps. But at least i'm not pregnant!! YAY!!!!

I can't think of a worsteperson to have a kid. Well, i possibly could. But i'm way up there.
Owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww... owowow. I already took motrin, make the pain go awayyyyyyyyy.

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I`ve figured out how to not drown myself - Mood:Good
Tuesday March 17 20091:28:55 AM |
A punching bag

I should SO get a punching bag.

I'm about ready to pull out my hair. I'm losing my mind.

Its unpleasant.

Make it go away.

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I`m addicted. I think i need help. - Mood:Good
Monday March 16 20099:01:04 PM |
An addiction to cakeballs I had 2 already a few minutes ago, and one this afternoon. And i SO want another. Actually, i want like 5 more.

With thicker chocolate they were too sweet, but the ones with thinner gooeyier chocolate are like crack.
I keep thinking, just one more.

Thats it- i'm getting rid of them. Free cakeballs, just come to my house. Or send me shipping money

So i rented movies.

-Bottle Shock (which is boring as hell so far)
-Then she found me

So i was thinking. Of making cakeballs all during the summer and starting up a little side business They are fun to make, semi easy, look professional and taste great. And are crack-like, which is a very important selling point in a product.

Now. How do i spread the word?

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Gimme movies! - Mood:Good
Monday March 16 20094:35:33 PM |
I'm gonna go rent a movie and i don't know what to get. i want a girly drama.


My cakeballs are delicious

my grandpa "why does this joe (my bf) chase you? You're not that great."

Gee thanks grandpa.

Movies? Help?
Name as many movies as you can possibly think of that fit 'girly drama"

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Its cakeball time Part 1/ *gooey sappy girly feelings*/ movie renting ideas - Mood:Good
Sunday March 15 20097:56:00 PM |
i had a lovely talk with the bf and i feel so much better now.

I kidnapped him in the only way i can being 4'11 and without a car- i tricked him, into spending the day with me out instead of going to my grams for dinner (he loves eating at my grams). But then i don't get to spend anytime with him, cuz everyone's over here and everyone wants to talk to him. And we don't get any 'us' time. and since its spring break i'm not gonna see him again until thursday and goddammit i wanted some us time.

I'm all lovely now though. And full of floaty girly sappy feelings. I missed them.

CAKEBALLS! part one- cake making.

I really wish i would have rented another video Maybe something is on HBO or showtime or on one of the free on demand channels though.


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"Aw! Here`s to hoping the baby looks like you and not your husband!" - Mood:Good
Sunday March 15 20092:48:00 PM |
.. Is probably not a good response to the baby pic i just got from my friend who had her last night.

She makes such a good mom.

I have hair.. that.. well.. you need a picture to fully understand.

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Like.. OMG.. the trees are so pretty... with the sun shining through them onto the water... i wanna live in those sun rays.. and be surrounded by beauty always. - Mood:Good
Sunday March 15 200912:27:56 AM |
So. You know that song Stupid Boy by Keith Urban? I kinda feel like that in my relationship. Like i'm this free spirit thats being fenced in and tamed.

I walked to the grocery store, which was exciting.

I bought:

-Green beans
-Snow peas

For the stir fly i've had a craving for
Along with:

-Stir fry sauce
-Sweet and sour sauce
-Can of water chestnuts

Then, since i'm at my grams house for the week, spring break, and have nothing here:

-Face wash

Then since i watched an episode of Good eats that featured it i bought:

-Red beans
-Bag of red beans and rice with seasoning you just boil

For cakeball makings:

-Mini cupcake tins

-Cream of mushroom soup

For a pasta dish i'm gonna make.

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Cakeball people! I need your help! - Mood:Good
Saturday March 14 20096:45:25 PM |
I'm gonna make them tonight

I have:
box of red velvet cake

i'm headed to the store to get the chocolate to cover them in a second.

is that all i need??

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So. I want to play super nintendo. But.. i can`t figure out hwo to hook it up. Help? - Mood:Good
Saturday March 14 200912:46:43 AM |
Help me.

I don't do well with cords and wires and things plugging into other things.


if you want pics of anything else lemme know what/where

I wanna play zelda. And super mario world. And warios woods if i could find the damn thing.

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No little joadelillahazelily running around. - Mood:Good
Friday March 13 20093:26:45 PM |
So i went to the health center.

Non preggers. But alllll this crap about putting me on pills and whatnot to force my period. Yea. No thanks. I'm either two weeks late or two weeks early, i don't wanna force it if i'd get it normally in 2 weeks.

So i'm waiting til after break.

Also, no diabetes.
People need to stop putting diseases/ailments in my head.


And its officially spring break

I have to pack all my sh*t up and unplug everything, clean out my fridge. etc
I'm gonna put on some music, clean, and pack.

OHOH and the best part of going to the health center??? She said no more sex until i get my period.

My socks match Its throwing me off. My socks NEVER match. But the only two clean ones are ones that match

Wanna help me pack?

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What percentage of things do you not like about your S/O? - Mood:Good
Friday March 13 20091:44:30 AM |
What percentage annoys/irritates you?
What percent of their ideals and views do you disagree with?
What percentage of doubt do you have in your mind about them?
How long have yall been together?

I have a paper to write. So of course i am on YT. Actually, i still have to shower, write a 4 page paper, haven't started it yet, its 1:30am and its due tomorrow.

So that should be fun.

2:30pm tomorrow. Health center. Preggers test.

If you never see me again, i have killed myself because it was positive.

I don't wanna have a baby with that boy. Mostly cuz i don't wanna have a baby.
I keep hearing my health teachers voice "if you are ready to have sex, you have to be ready to have a baby".
Well. I'm not.




Spring break starts tomorrow at 3:15. Woo.

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Whoa yea wait a minute mr postman, wa-ai-ai-ait mr postman, please mr postman look and see, if theres a letter in your bag for me - Mood:Good
Thursday March 12 200912:56:15 AM |
My hand smells like sh*t. Like.... actual sh*t. And i'm disturbed, as i i have no idea why. I wash my hand before i leave the loo yo.

I had a long talk with the boy and i feel all good about us now

Still don't know if i'm preggers, have wicked bad pms, or am dying (aka something else).

I'm going to the center friday, then if THAT'S negative i am putting it out of my mind for two weeks, then going again.

Sh*t. I just remember i have to read a chapter and write notes to present it to the class, due tomorrow.

I still have to shower

Name 5 things you did today that you liked, and name 5 things you did today you didn't like.

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I don`t wanna move. - Mood:Good
Wednesday March 11 20094:03:28 PM |
I've had this problem for about 3 days now.

I've gone to one class out of 6 so far this week.

At the request of my bf i am peeing on yet another stick tomorrow, and going to the health center friday. First one was negative but i'm somewhere between -2 weeks (early) and 2 weeks late, and don't feel good so he's freaking.

I have waves of freaking, and waves of not freaking.

I am lounging on my bed. My stomach is all weird. I couldn't get to sleep last night cuz my stomach was all weird, plus i kept getting stabbing pains.

It could be pms.

But mostly.. I just really don't wanna move. Like, i wanna move... I wanna go dance and go to class but my body is like NO. YOU WILL NOT MOVE.
It takes SO MUCH effort.

wtf is wrong with me?
My bf is worried on two counts.
1) hes worried i'm pregnant
2) he's worried that if i'm not pregnant, something is horridly wrong with me.


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I think i am pregnant, have diabetes, am anemic, caught the plague, am bipolar, am looking all my teeth and have wicked bad PMS - Mood:Good
Tuesday March 10 20095:50:06 PM |
I have been insatiably thirsty, and hungry, mostly for sweet things. Which has caused me to have to pee constantly. But its like.. a different kind of pee. Its more frequent and urgent Plus i've been like.. sluggish and not wanting to move.
Thus my friend (and therefore I) am convinced i have diabetes

I am about one day to 2 weeks late for my period (it CRAZY fluctuates from a 29 day cycle to a 48 day cycle every month), my stomach has been kinda weird and i am an extremely paranoid person.
Thus, my boyfriend (and therefore I) is convinced i am pregnant.


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Monday March 09 20094:39:31 PM |
Hi YT.

I may have overslept and missed my first class today. I blame YT. It was too interesting last night.

Calzones are good.

I need to shower.

I hate when people give celebrity gifts. GIVE IT TO THE LITTLE PEOPLE WHO CAN'T AFFORD poo LIKE THAT


I am ready for spring break yo. I wanna go somewhere. I wanna go on vacation. But where. And with who. I could have gone with the boy but he found a job again and won't have a week off.

I feel bitchy. And disconnected.
Bad things come from that.


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So... whats the difference bewteen girlfriends and counselors? - Mood:Good
Monday March 09 20091:40:27 AM |
I really wanna talk my relationship to death with people. I was thinking, cuz i'm programmed to, counselors.
But then i was thinking, i don't want professional ears. I don't need them. With this anyway

I want girls, with relationship experience, friends, to tell me if things i'm doing/feeling/ he's doing are normal/bad/good. or just listen to my crazy hormonal girl thoughts, fears and fretting.

All my friends atm are guys. half of which are guys who i dated/ once liked me. If not more than half. I need some females in my life. Who aren't related to me and 30+ years older.


Why must i complicate everything? Why must i be a girl?

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A package i sent to a YTer for christmas just came back to me :-( - Mood:Good
Friday March 06 200910:10:28 PM |
To mudassar. Insufficient address apparently.

My friend is annoying the poo out of me.

He went to a dance performance just to try to pick up one of the dancers (he has a thing for short dancers). I ed at him. Seriously. Creepy dude.

Anyway. He went yesterday, found a girl he likes, asked him to look out for her- shes the shortest girl in the 5th piece- and see if i know her name. He had it narrowed down to 5 from the program

I was like.. um. No. Thats creepy. He begged, i'm like fine, i have to go watch anyway, i'll see if i know the short girl in the 5th piece.

So i go. I DO know the short girl in the 5th piece. So i tell him her name. He's all, "well wtf am i just going to do with a name, i wanted you to introduce me to her".

1) I know of her, i don't personally know her


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Just kill me now. - Mood:Good
Friday March 06 20094:54:50 PM |
My tooth broke in half

Make it magically better.

Gross broken tooth pic:

My bf keeps telling me to go to a dentist or i'll be sorry. My mother keeps telling me to leave it alone unless it hurts. It doesn't btw. yet.

I am in a CRAPPY ass mood. I really wanna scream and punch someone.

it is really hard to remember to chew on one side only.


Except you. Well, maybe you though.

Am i the only one who gets suicidal when faced with the dentist?

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Gimme some good girl/guy movies to watch - Mood:Good
Thursday March 05 20099:51:14 PM |
me and the bo wanna watchna movie but its so hard to find a movie both he (typical guy taste) and i (typical girl taste) would wanna watch.

he: no musicals
me: no gory bloody scary whatnot


I'm thinking something dramaish. but not sad. and not creepy.

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A rant. Seriously a rant you really don`t care about. - Mood:Good
Thursday March 05 20096:39:47 PM |
So i'm crying, and i have no idea why i'm crying

Well, i know what started it but its stupid and really not a reason to cry. i keep laughing and yelling at myself

Maybe i just needed a good cry

i suppose i should say what upset me. otherwise i really don't have much of a journal

I WAS RIGHT. Not only did he not use me an guide/example when he really didn't have many and was looking for one, but he tried to correct me when I WAS RIGHT. Even he wasn't right in the movement. I tried to tell him and he wouldn't listen to me. It took him 5 minute of fiddling with other people to figure it out (that what *I* was doing was right) and even THEN he didn't use me as an example. Didn't even acknowledge that i was right all along.


When i get angry i cry. Plus i'm kinda hurt he has no faith in me. Like, negative faith in me.

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I almost had a totally awesome beyond spectacular ridiculous amounts of fun and happiness night - Mood:Good
Thursday March 05 20091:43:16 AM |
But no. I can't figure out how to hook up my super nintendo to my dorm tv

i am resisting the urge to call up my bf at 2am to come over and hook it up.

I think i'm missing some parts and whosywhatsits though.



My leg looks gnarly man. Its all battered, bruised and scabbed.

OH MY GOD I AM ABOUT TO MURDER MY FRIEND. He drives me insane. Hes really.. not.. i dunno. Good friend material. All he does is insult my bf, he is itching for us to break up, hes all ME ME ME ME ME ME, hes arrogant yet is all woe is me, the world is out to get me.

Why am i still friends with him? he's the only one i've got. i'm working on that.

I just so got neosporin alll over my laptop keys

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Cakeballs or a beach side vacation? - Mood:Good
Wednesday March 04 20093:28:00 PM |
So i bought all the ingredients to make cakeballs, they are waiting at my grandmas house. I was planning on making them over spring break so i could use my grandmas well stocked, clean, non invisible kitchen

But but.... the bf invited me to go to mytle beach with him. His family has a house down there, it'd be his parents, his brothers, him and me in the house, his aunt and his cousins nearby.

On one hand, a week of relaxation and vacation? Hellz yes. Oh the other. I'd be completely reliant on him and all up in his family. I'm not sure i'm quite that comfortable with his family yet.

On that same hand i get car sick after 2 hours. Its a 15 hour drive.

On the other hand i'll be bfless over spring break. But i'll live.


Cakeballs or vacation with the bf?

I'm tired. Pray to the academic gods that my last class is cancelled.

I really wanna skip. But i can't.

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