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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:02:15 PM EST (GMT-5)
Sigh.
I've had no coffee and no cigarettes today. I hardly recognize myself.
I talked to my best friend. The one I don't want to be friends with anymore and I realized how much I miss her. How much I love her. But I still remember all the bad things too. How can I weigh that? Pain vs. Love. I just don't know.
Tonight's movie is one of her favorites. I think it's a pretty good movie. I haven't seen it in awhile.
For some odd reason. Right now, more than anything else, I'd have to say I feel lost. I'm still in a good mood. Just...not all there?
The world may never know. 
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:02:56 PM EST (GMT-5)
Christmas Blahs strike again  |
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:04:03 PM EST (GMT-5)
The Pain vs. Love thing is hard to deal with. My best friend has caused me SO much trouble and heartbreak. Yet I love him. And I know that I would not be complete without him..
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:04:41 PM EST (GMT-5)
wow, i could never make it though a day without some form of nicotine
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:06:55 PM EST (GMT-5)
Sammy, actually this has nothing to do with Christmas. All the Christmas stuff is going Great. I went shopping today and bought something for my YT secret santa, I got something for my cousin, I fixed my lights (they fell down :P).
This is a side thing that happens everytime I talk to her.
Orion, it's hard. Oh so very hard. I'm dying. A little piece of me dies everytime I don't walk outside to smoke. I can feel it...
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:13:51 PM EST (GMT-5)
I've only had two today Wonder. I'm so proud of me!
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:17:29 PM EST (GMT-5)
aww....i'll smoke a lot for you then WL42.....
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:18:37 PM EST (GMT-5)
It's hard to weigh out, it's just something you have to get past. In my situation I know the pain of not having him in my life is greater than anything I've been through. But I also know that I'm going to be the bigger person and if he hurts me again I'm walking away.
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:25:04 PM EST (GMT-5)
Fantastic use of the skeptismile!
I'm not familiar with tonite's quote. I like it though.
I know what you mean by lost, but still in a good mood anyway. I've been there many times. |
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:47:28 PM EST (GMT-5)
Legend!
Blunder: Look! Ugly one-horned mule! (looking at a unicorn)
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:50:33 PM EST (GMT-5)
As soon as I read this thread, I remembered that I went to my purse to get my cigarettes out and have one... about 15 minutes ago... hehe. I really wanna quit, but I don't wanna gain weight doing it.  |
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:55:29 PM EST (GMT-5)
Good Job Doli!!
You've seen way to many movies...I've said it before. I'm sure I'll end up saying it again. :P
LSD. I'm not actually quitting. I was going to quit for one week for $50, but now I'm quitting for 10 days for $75. Much better deal. There is of course a new requirement of me, but one that will be easily met. The next ciggy you smoke, you have to take one drag and think of me, okay? :)
Trav, Skeptismile!! :D (no more needs to be said)
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Monday 12/9/02 - 11:58:53 PM EST (GMT-5)
Yeah I know, I read about the week, but not the 10 days. I sure as hell would do it for money like that! Totally worth it, plus I really don't smoke that much, just a few cigs a day, and they're ultra lights..
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Tuesday 12/10/02 - 12:01:01 AM EST (GMT-5)
Maybe you WILL quit because of this wonder!  |
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Tuesday 12/10/02 - 12:02:22 AM EST (GMT-5)
Ultra lights?! :P I'd need five of those to give me the nicotine fix I need! hehe...Just kiddin'.
I normally only smoke about 7 a day anyway, so it's not like it's the worst thing ever.
It's just that I *REALLY* want a cigarette!!
ANYWAY...
mwahaha!!! |
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10 yrs ago, 5 mos ago - Tuesday 12/10/02 - 12:05:10 AM EST (GMT-5)
I am so proud of me. I'm quitting quite nicely.
I feel your pain though Wonder, I really do. That money would be nice though! I wish someone would pay me to not smoke! |
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