I am so entirely upset right now. And it is my fault. I don`t even want to go deep into the details because I don`t want to make myself look... Who's Online | Find Members | Private Messages
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I`m The Fool Still In Love With A Fool

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14 yrs ago, 6 mos ago - Wednesday 11/16/05 - 1:44:29 AM EST (GMT-5)
I am so entirely upset right now. And it is my fault. I don't even want to go deep into the details because I don't want to make myself look more like a fool then I already feel. Why can't my ex just let me move on? Why do I let him say he loves me and get a glimmer of hope when he says I'm all he's ever wanted and he wants to see me when I come back to michigan? why? I should hate him. I should literally want him dead for all the sh*t he put me through. So why does my heart jump when I speak to him and why do I speak to him at all. It's been 6 months since we've been together but I still cry everyday. Why is he still affecting me like this. Why can't I just hate him? I'm sorry this is so angsty I'm just so upset right now and everyone is sleeping and I needed to vent. Advice would be appreciated but then again you don't really know the whole story so how are you supposed to give me advice.. I don't know I hope everyone is having a better night than me.
14 yrs ago, 6 mos ago - Wednesday 11/16/05 - 1:46:29 AM EST (GMT-5)
aww. what a git, but its obvious you still love him.
*hugs* hope he backs off soon, then you can get over him and get on with your life..
14 yrs ago, 6 mos ago - Wednesday 11/16/05 - 1:47:59 AM EST (GMT-5)
I hate when that happens.
I'm so sorry.
Just ignore him if you can.

14 yrs ago, 6 mos ago - Wednesday 11/16/05 - 2:07:20 AM EST (GMT-5)
Maybe that's why he keeps returning into my life because he knows he can work my emotions because I still love him. He's just so messed up why is he going through all this trouble to make my life a living hell?

He writes poems and sends them to me and tells me he dreams of me every night and tells me about it. This is f*cking cruel. I literally can't do this anymore. I'm like having a mental breakdown.

14 yrs ago, 6 mos ago - Wednesday 11/16/05 - 2:34:00 AM EST (GMT-5)
If you know what a jerk he is, try your best to ignore him. I know thats hard to do, I still have a little jump when my ex messages me online.

But if you know its not worth it to go through a relationship with him, again, stop talking to him for a while. Thats probably what you need to get over him. Focus on other things, other guys. My ex didn't start getting over me until we stopped talking for a few months, then it was easier for him to move on(took him 8 months to leave me alone)

Its not fair of your ec to keep leading you on and playing with your heart. He's either regretting losing you, or he's just being an ass cause he knows you still care.

Good luck, and I hope whatever happens is the best outcome for you.

14 yrs ago, 6 mos ago - Wednesday 11/16/05 - 2:41:24 AM EST (GMT-5)
Coming across a photo of the woman he used to cheat on me with helped a lot. Seemed like everytime I thought "What if.." or he and I started talking.. that photo would some how crop up.



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