I don’t have this much energy when I’m not on my medication. That first thing waking up, usually earlier than normal, I think I actually feel a sense of optimism. I think there’s things that make me optimistic and they rightfully should. I’m going to try and maintain it today.
I missed my medication last Sunday as well. And I woke up early, honestly with more of a hangover, but still feeling optimistic. Well, that’s not true. I think it was being at my family’s house. I was anxious. Family is a definite trigger.
But today. It’s early. I’m having a cup of coffee. It’s a little weak but that’s okay. And I’ve got a day to take on. And try and maintain a little bit of the contentment I’m feeling now.
Work week I’d get myself way out of sorts without medication. I get out of sorts with medication at work.
It’s a social anxiety at its root.
Manifested as manic and depressive