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12 days ago - Tuesday 5/14/19 - 2:56:04 AM EST (GMT-5)
woke up to thunderstorms and exhaustion,
so called out sick

been going to therapy a couple of months; saw a psychiatrist.
psych was really creepy and i'm going to see someone else, but therapy has been great. 5/5

the dude i mentioned last summer and i have been dating a year now.
rocky start but am now just thankful for the guy's patience

interviewing for a job in my old field, but don't mind my current one too much.
winter was rough, my self-worth took a hit
but our newest hire is my new supervisor and it's much better now

today i saw apartments close to the dream job; maybe jumped the gun
it's a cute area but "up and coming' and half-shady, half-gentrified; uncomfortable in different ways
took a selfie at a nearby art supply store


12 days ago - Tuesday 5/14/19 - 3:13:14 AM EST (GMT-5)
i'm developing a pattern where every 1-3 years i make a big summer transition
i feel disoriented but alive and need little sleep and wonder if it's some sort of hypomania or adhd thing.
it's happening these weeks (hence late night journal) so i told my therapist, she's logging it and i can worry a little less

unrelated things:
-broad city reminded me of the allegretto part of Beethoven's "Tempest" - thank you broad city for the endorphins
all versions are great but i can't find my favorite interpretation
when i find it i'll post it (evgeny kissin's is probably good)

-i discovered that the tree hovering above my driveway grows freaking mulberries, so this morning i had watery mulberries-on-the-go for breakfast and maybe soon i'll actually put them in a container before my mouth

-piano went back to its seller cheapest way to move it.

12 days ago - Tuesday 5/14/19 - 3:32:32 AM EST (GMT-5)
I enjoy a good sonata, yet I rarely listen to them. I think I don't have the attention span for classical music unless I'm seeing it live
I have all the time in the world for a cello though. Could listen to that all day

12 days ago - Tuesday 5/14/19 - 3:35:46 AM EST (GMT-5)
probably as good as it gets

oooh, i like this too though it's not as dynamic

i forgot - since my last journal i've taken
-a traumatizing trip to DC with work,
-a relaxing leisurely beach trip with boyfriend,
-and a frantic lightning trip to my parents' (five hours on the road) to give my mother her birthday flowers and presents (Tile, and Spanish-language version of Michelle Obama's 'Becoming'.) for mother's day i assumed she'd be tired of flowers so i had a frozen yogurt assortment delivered to her place with a few toppings. i am usually a flaky daughter and the attempts to stay in touch boosted my own mood.

okay. that's all for the youthink containermachine
12 days ago - Tuesday 5/14/19 - 3:40:10 AM EST (GMT-5)
On Tuesday 5/14/19 - 3:32:32 AM hamletsghost wrote:
I enjoy a good sonata, yet I rarely listen to them. I think I don't have the attention span for classical music unless I'm seeing it live I have all the time in the world for a cello though. Could listen to that all day

what's your fave cello piece?
11 days ago - Wednesday 5/15/19 - 4:10:18 AM EST (GMT-5)
I don't have a favourite. I just love listening to the cello no matter what it's doing
I do enjoy the work of 2cellos - especially their version of Hallelujah
11 days ago - Wednesday 5/15/19 - 5:45:55 AM EST (GMT-5)
I miss having food producing plants in the yard.
Our neighbor had a pear tree and we were allowed to help ourselves.
We had raspberries bushes for awhile.
Aunt had an apple tree. And grapes.
But my gram had a huge veg garden. I could go back there, pluck and pick and just about have a meal.
10 days ago - Wednesday 5/15/19 - 5:39:34 PM EST (GMT-5)
A long time ago I took my mum to see a specialist that had his rooms in the psychiatric wing of the local hospital.

It was in transition, as a new dedicated wing had been built for psychiatrics.

So the waiting room was a mixture of mental patients and others.

One particularly strange man walked past and I said to my mum "wow wonder what's wrong with him?"

The receptionist overheard me and said "That's one of our psychiatrists".
10 days ago - Thursday 5/16/19 - 12:46:46 PM EST (GMT-5)
Hey. Cute pic in bathroom. Lol.

Hope you find a different good therapist. The right person really does make the difference. Sounds to me like you are mostly just evolving and going through changes. Totally normal. Everyone, including me, questions their life and if we want change. I considered a job in California but decided to stay closer to home (Chicago area). Its good and healthy you are questioning things and want more.

Hope you get your dream job.
10 days ago - Thursday 5/16/19 - 1:04:20 PM EST (GMT-5)
Love Beethoven. Bird made a thread in the Generals about Bach and you can compose a song. Its fun.

http://www.youthink.com/forum.cfm?a...

8 days ago - Saturday 5/18/19 - 6:46:25 AM EST (GMT-5)
Nicole that sounds pretty idyllic. I think Socio grew a few fruit and nut trees... I think I'd ruin my meals stuffing myself before going inside if I were y'all

Mich - hah! That sounds accurate. The receptionist must have gotten a kick out of that.

8 days ago - Saturday 5/18/19 - 7:22:53 AM EST (GMT-5)
It scares me so much that's the case though, really. They're seeing mentally/emotionally vulnerable and hurt people, and mistreatment can cause that much more damage.

Skirtgirl thank you! I crave stability and jobs are hectic these days but hopefully if it pans out this is something that will give me better control of my workday and something more sustainable. I used to fantasize about working in Chicago after moving from there, but totally get the appeal of staying somewhere warmer.
Interviewed for the job last Thursday and they asked for references after, and called at least one of them yesterday so I'm spending the next days trying not to freak out....(ahhhh)

Going to need to look up the hallelujah cover and Bach song composer
8 days ago - Saturday 5/18/19 - 8:32:31 AM EST (GMT-5)
I've been listening to cello covers of studio ghibli music today too, and that is also excellent



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